Muddled - to be in a state of bewilderment, confusion or disorder. To 'muddle' also means to mix or jumble as is the case in making mixed drinks. It is considered that the word "muddle" is from Dutch origin meaning "to make muddy." And as it is with many of us we often "muddle" through periods of our lives. I think most of "muddling" when I consider the Cross.  That is my frame of reference when talking about spiritual matters. There is much 'muddling' at the Cross. There was bewilderment and confusion on the part of all close to Jesus. There was disorder to the utter magnitude in that God was on the cross, on trial, and on display simply for the love of mankind. We can even say that Jesus was 'muddled' on our behalf. He was crushed - God mixed with human flesh that we who are very finite might grasp in the smallest way the infinite. The thought of the Cross leaves me muddled often and overwhelmed. The Cross is a tidal wave of love that washes over the high sea wall of my doubts and overwhelms me.